Usually Not

Here's something that can be kind of annoying. Sometimes someone will tell you that they have found the funniest thing you have ever seen and they tell you you have to check it out online. So you do because you have nothing better to do. But the thing isn't actually that funny because you don't share that person's sense of humour and you end up wasting your time. I guess you have to check it because there may be a chance that it actually is the funniest thing ever. Usually it isn't though. There's so much junk on the internet and many people don't know what is worth sharing.

Slime volleyball is worth sharing. It is a fun game that two people can play on one computer. If you google search it you will find it right away. I recommend the game for two people. Very simple but very fun.

I have come to believe that the suggested doses for energy drinks are generally a good guideline. I'm not sure what happens if you have more than that, but after two of them I feel a bit noxious. I have learned my lesson. I would rather drink too much alchohol because at least I would be able to tell that I had enough before I went too far.

Idle Thoughts

They are the worst. If there was one thing that I could change about myself it might be my idle thoughts. I just start questioning everything and I'm constantly second guessing myself. Without anything to keep my mind preoccupied I can slip into really unproductive thought processes. I guess meditation would be the best solution for silencing that kind of thing but that's just another thing to add to my continuously growing list of things that I should do.

Why is it that naps are always even better than normal sleep? And why is it so easy to nap while sometimes it takes forever to fall asleep at night? My new favorite place to nap is in the sun outside. I think it's still to early in the year for the sun to be too dangerous but it still feels great.

I had an action-packed dream last night. I was with a group of people and we were in some large structure that was completely white and had openings all over the place into other chambers. It's kind of difficult to describe but it was a fun space. I think we were actually a tribe of people or something and we were trying to find shelter against potential invaders. We decided the place was our best bet in case of attack. We went out the front entrance and were on the beach. We saw a giant canoe or something moving really fast out on the ocean and then it started coming towards us and we knew it was an invading tribe. We retreated back into the structure and tried to figure out where to hide. There was one space that people thought would be good but I thought it was still too open and obvious. I ran out of time and ended up hiding there anyways. When the invaders came in I peeked out a window into the chamber below. Then I wished I hadn't because they saw me. They were trying to figure out how to get into my room and I thought I would have to surrender. Up to this point I guess I was worried about being killed by the invaders but then I saw them and they were just normal looking people and not aggressive at all. I became more confident and less worried. It was more like a game of cops and robbers now. I waited for two invaders to choose their entrance and then jumped out another opening to a different room. I proceeded to perform amazing flying diving roll cartwheel type moves around the place through small openings. I was thinking that it was strange because I hadn't been so agile just moments earlier but then I thought it was probably just the need to escape that was enabling me. The dream kind of broke down around that point, but it was a really fun and exciting dream while it lasted.

Absolute Darkness is Fun

Today is a warm day. The warmest yet this year. I like it.

I feel like I should be writing down more ideas right now but I can't organize them into suitable posting material. Either there are too many of them or I'm just really tired and can't think properly.

I want to have a pitch black party where at one point in the night everyone goes into a space with absolutely no light and hang out and talk. I find complete darkness to be really cool and unsettling at the same time. I am rarely in pitch black environments but every time that I am I always have a neat experience. Not being able to see your hand moving in front of your face really throws off your senses. It's like actually being blind.

I had a funny strange dream last night. I was walking around downtown, and at some point this homeless naked guy started following me. Actually, he wasn't following me, he was just walking beside me everywhere I went. He wasn't creepy or anything, and he was probably in his late 20s or 30s. I guess I didn't have any objections to him going everywhere with me, but I didn't think he should be walking around completely naked. I told him that we had to get him some clothes before he could go anywhere else with me. We went to a place where the clothes were supposed to be really generic and cheap. It wasn't a thrift store, but it was kind of meant for homeless people, or so I thought. We went into the store and the guy went and got dressed in a set of pretty cool looking clothes. Then I was annoyed because his clothes looked better than mine. When we went to the guy at the till we were told that everything we had chosen would cost $170. The homeless guy couldn't afford it. I had been willing to buy the guy clothes, but this was way too expensive. I asked how much the underwear was alone, and it was only $3. I said I'd just buy the underwear and he'd have to find more clothes somewhere else. I could handle walking around with a guy just wearing underwear much more easily. That's all I remember.

I Dreamed of Giant Octopuses

The closer I get to finishing school for the year the more excited I get. And I'm already really excited. One exam to go.

Here's a dream I had last night. A bunch of friends and I are crammed into a car and we're driving along the ocean in North Vancouver. Then all of a sudden we notice out the window that there are giant octopuses swimming along the rocks. Someone says there are four of them, but we notice another one every second and I call out for every new one, "5, 6, 7, 8" and so on until it becomes pointless. We somehow circle around and try to get a better look, I think some roads must have suddenly appeared to make this possible. The octopuses are all migrating or something and there are a bunch of predators at their starting point, I remember two large walruses in particular eating some octopuses. I felt bad for them. Then somehow I am down on the water on some crude floating device and my friend is with me. It is actually a really cool place to view them from so we are excited. We start paddling along so we can keep up with the octopuses as they are swimming. We notice some of the octopuses are large and chunky and it is because they are eating something that is wrapped up underneath them. We suddenly realize that the octopuses could probably eat us if they wanted to and get nervous. One octopus bumps into us from behind and we freak out and start paddling hard. Then we go too far and suddenly hit the biggest octopus ever. This one is massive, I think it was a whole other kind of octopus. It grabs my leg I think and I decide that maybe if I don't struggle or move it won't think I am food. It pulls me under water and I just hold my breath. Then something happens and I can breath and talk under the water, which is really cool. Then the octopus lets me go and explains, (telepathically?), that there is a deal between humans and octopuses that some divers made one time that octopuses will never eat humans. I'm pretty relieved about it. I can't remember exactly what happened after that. Seeing all of those octopuses was an amazing sight, even though it would never look like that in real life.

Who Would It Be?

I asked a few people today this question. If you were doomed to be pushed off a cliff but you could choose who pushed you, who would you choose? The answers seemed to vary quite a bit. Personally I think I might want someone that was despicable anyways, which someone else agreed with. Another choice was being pushed by someone very honorable, to make the whole event special. The other choice that was suggested, which I had considered, was being pushed by someone really awesome. I really don't know what the best choice is. I'm sure they all have their virtues. Thank goodness I don't have to make these kind of choices in real life.

I was and still am completely burned out today. I am exhausted. I cannot wait to sleep now. I am so tired that I don't even care that I don't have any running water still.

I was disappointed again today by video art. I am starting to solidly believe that the term 'video art' is just an excuse to make bad movies. I think it has potential, but the majority of stuff made is just awful. I don't think movies should all try to emulate hollywood by any means, but I think they should still be good, whatever that means.

Do you know the game 'guess who'? I really want to make my own version of the game using all people that I know. I think it could be really fun, especially since the questions could go deeper than appearances. It wouldn't be that hard to make. I don't have any good excuses not to make it.

I need to get sleep and I can't think straight anymore so I'm just going to close by passing along these cool new things to say. The first one is 'bottom line'. When something is really good it is 'bottom line'. All the cool people are going to start saying it. The other cool thing to say might be 'swift'. It is essentially the same as 'bottom line' but works better in some instances and less well in others. Use your discretion with 'swift'.

It's Probably Nothing

Have you ever picked up your drink to notice some unidentifiable particle floating on the surface? And then you consider fishing it out, but you think that maybe if you drink carefully you will be able to isolate it until the last sip and maybe run it up onto the side of your cup? Then you keep drinking and keep a cautious eye on it floating there? Then you let your guard down because the thing isn't moving and as soon as you do you look again after a sip and it's gone? And you know you probably just drank it? And you hope it was nothing? I know I have.

I have been musically productive these past three days. I have recorded three new songs in that time. Rather than using my nice studio though I decided to record them into garage band using the computer's on board mic. They're all just single live tracks of accoustic guitar and singing. I've only showed one person so far, but I hear they are good, which is encouraging. If I can write and record a song in only an hour then there should be no stopping me from cutting and album really soon. I hope to have something in the next month. The songs are pretty low-fi but I like the sound. They're all just simple fun songs.

In terrible news, my water is not working again. I would trade the time of having no water for having no electricity without hesitation. Water is so great. Better than computers, watching movies, listening to music, you name it.

I had a bout of hunger today that I could not end. I ate lots, or so I thought. The tapeworm theory gains a bit of credibility today. I almost want to eat too much so that I have no doubt as to whether I am still hungry, because right now I'm not sure. I'm on the edge of something, could be hunger, could be fullness. Only time will tell.

I also dreamed about doing no-legged push-ups which I guess is kind of strange. I don't normally do exercise in dreams, especially exercises I can't actually do, but I think it was probably closer to acrobatics which is something I commonly do in dreams. It really makes me want to get into much better shape. I was trying to figure out how to force myself to exercise more. I thought I'd probably be willing to pay someone like a personal trainer to force me to exercise. Then I thought that people would probably want a lot of money to have to do that. Then I realized that if someone asked me to wake them up at 5am every morning and force them to exercise and they would pay me to do it I would be all over that. Seems like it would be fun. I now notice this paragraph has jumped several tangents too far so I'm going to call it a post.

A Little Alarm Never Hurt Anybody

I knew that I had to get out of the house for a while today so that it wasn't another completely uneventful day. I had an excuse too because I had to go to the bank. I decided to go about an hour before the bank closed. The weather, which had been miserable earlier, had cleared up very nicely. My luck with the weather is usually good like that.

I get to the bank and get in line. I'm only one person from the front of the line and suddenly a firebell goes off. I've only really had firebells go off in schools, rarely anywhere else. I was wondering what the proper procedure was for a bank. There were a lot of people just standing around probably wondering the same thing. I guess the people at the tills finished up and then all the bank employees put on their jackets so I walked out. It was really funny how disorganized the whole thing was. I would have expected someone to calmly tell people they had to leave but it didn't happen. I would have happily kept banking. It just looked kind of like all the employees had decided to go on break at the same time, and there just happened to be an alarm going off in the background. I've never actually been in a bank when an alarm has gone off so that was kind of exciting too. It probably would have been a different sound though if there was a robbery. Anything out of the ordinary in a bank is exciting though. They just seem like such orderly boring places.

I decided to wait just outside because I didn't think it would take too long for them to come back. I also got to watch everyone's reaction to the event and the ensuing disorderly conduct. The funniest part was watching the bank manager trying to lock the door after everyone was out. For some reason she could not lock it, not even with help from other employees. They had pulled the gate shut inside, so the majority of the bank was closed off but I guess they wanted to lock the front door too because if there was a fire they would be liable. They just gave up on trying to lock the door and then left. I thought it was kind of irresponsible but I didn't care so it was mostly hilarious. Especially when some guy just walked up to the door a minute later and went in to use the instabank machine. The alarm was still going off and nobody else was in the bank but it didn't seem to bother him at all. I assume he took care of his business in there and then he came out again. A few minutes later another guy actually went in too. Alarm still going strong. I don't know which was funnier, those two guys or the bank manager not locking the door. It really made me think about how no matter how professional someone may act or appear in a certain situation, there will always situations in which they will have no idea what to do. That's when someone's character is put to the test.

The fire truck came and turned off the alarm and the bank people came back shortly after that so I was able to take care of my banking. I left thinking slightly less of the bank, (not that I'm a fan of the bank by any means in the first place).

During this time the weather had started up again the rain was back. It started pouring while I was crossing a field but it was such great rain. I was not dressed for the weather at all, but something about it was really peaceful and calming. It was a really soft rain, there was lots of it, but it was fine droplets. I was soaked by the time I got back home but I'm almost dry now. My ipod surprised me once again with the perfect soundtrack for the rainy walk home. Really mellow songs from Blonde Redhead, then Sonic Youth, then Interpol and finishing with Stars. I could not have planned it better.

I have a new theory about rain. Rain is only miserable when you wear lots of clothes and try to stay dry. In the winter it is necessary to wear lots because it is cold outside, but in the summer the rain is great. It's logical. Showers are the best, and summer rain is basically a natural shower. I need to make a note to go out more wearing just a bathing suit when it rains in the summer. I don't think I've done it before but it seems like it would be a good time.

I had a dodgeball dream last night where I was playing really well. My team was down most of our players and the other side still had 4 people. I picked off the guys one by one getting awesome foot hits. Then their last girl player was crouched down at back wall. I was really worried that she would catch one of my throws but after several throws I got her in the foot and the ball bounced right back to me. It was over. I was pretty happy about my playing. I wish I could play that well in real life. To be fair though I think the players on the other team weren't playing much offense.